Friends....

I often asked myself how many friends I have? I know there are many
persons around me, every day!! So many that sometimes I prefer to be
alone at home, not to see anybody at all.
Not that I don't like those people, but just to have time to think
about myself.
It's not that I am so open for friends. It is difficult for me to tell
about the deeper thoughts and feelings in my life. Most of that I keep
for myself. I even think that there is nobody on the face of this earth
who knows all my thoughts, feelings and secrets.
Still I need friends!!! And I also appreciate friends as well. :-)
I have some friends from childhood. Not that they know everything I'm
doing and all what I'm experiencing, but they know my basic person, and
they accept me the way I was (and in a way: I still am). Therefore I
respect them greatly. Only: it's not so that they can advise me in all
the difficult thoughts of my soul.
Long ago I read: "A friend is someone who can see through you and still
enjoy the show".
That's nice!! So, friends like this will not be annoyed by all my bad
habits, my lack of patience, my stubbornness, my moods, etc. Because I
have all of that.
But that is not enough. Because it is only a way that I enjoy
friendship. I also have to be there for the other!! To appreciate them,
and listen to them with honest and real interest. Not that I can solve
their problems, because my capabilities are also limited. But to be, and
to care. To laugh together, but also to share the tears.
I hope I can be a friend like that as well. I wish that there will
always be friends in my life. Not in great numbers, but in great
quality. Just the same as I will try to be the friend of somebody
else!!